The Beginning of "Female-Like" to "Female"

“Kalau sama teman laki-laki saya sering dijahili. Tapi, teman-teman perempuan selalu baik kepada saya.”

-Sonya-

            This quote is taken from Ms. Sonya statement in the last creative meeting class (13/5). Ms. Sonya is a shemale. She was the interviewee for our interviewing practice. I don’ really remember how exactly she stated that quote but she said she was more pleasant to hang out with her female friends instead of males when she was a child.

            While being interviewed by one of my friend in front of the class, me and the others were listening from the ‘audience seat’. Seating in a female-like position, Ms. Sonya explained her childhood to class.

            Her male friends oftenly bullied her. Then, she started to ‘move’ into the place where people were nice; the girls side. Then, she started to play like other little girls commonly do. This little habbit soon affected her behavior afterwards.

            In Junior high scholl, sometime she was learning to use make up by herself. But of course it was done without her parents permission. She continued to do another female-like activity until she really obsessed to become a woman. She even regret herself to be born as a male. She thought that there are more previlages for being a woman.

            What i learned from her confession is that our childhood will build our self in the future. What do we learn and how the process we face will determine our characters. In Ms. Sonya case she spent her childhood more with girls instead of boys. From this daily activity, the girls behavior soon affect her past mental as boy. Now, she ended up becoming a shemale.

            Now, some of my friends are even more so. They spend more time hanging out with girls, talk like one, and act like one. Finally, they also ended up like one. Live with a female soul caged in a male body. But, most of them decide to live as a male. It is different from Ms. Sonya who decided to live as a female.